You oughta see me now...

Lesson Learned - Alicia Keys
Still in Love - Kirk Franklin
Sometimes U Make Me Smile - Floetry

"Life perfect ain't perfect if you don't know what the struggle's for. Falling down ain't falling down if you don't cry when you hit the floor. It's called the past cause I'm getting past, and I ain't nothin like I was before. You oughta see me now..." -Alicia Keys 'Lesson Learned'

I think I'm at a turning point. It's one of those times in a persons life where they're at that fork in the road and are not really sure which road to take. I not proud to say this, but I'm scared of the future. I'm apprehensive to change and I hate being placed outside of my comfort zone. I'm not proud of this because it makes me look like a punk. And if there's anything I hate more in this world besides lima beans, it's looking like a punk.

I don't want to be like I was yesterday. I think that God causes things to happen to us, not only to make us stronger, but to grow us up also. He's an amazing guy and I'm not seeing that He's got more power than I'll ever have. So why don't I let Him use me? Maybe it's the fear that He'll let me down like a lot of other people have. Or maybe it's the fact in believing in someone I can't see, or sometimes hear, but can definately feel His touch...

I got something off my chest that I've been wanting too for a long time. I thank God for giving me that opportunity to say what had been on my mind for months now. It's taken a huge load off my chest. Time is important. I don't care who or what you ask, time is an important factor in everyone's life. I hate wasting my time. I think it's stupid and pointless, and I try really hard not to do it too often, because it gets on my nerves. My time is important because my life is hectic, but every single day no matter how busy, tired, or crazy my life may seem I take the time out to communicate with the ones I love the most. When I give my time to someone thats a big indication that I care. When that time isn't received back...well thats when I stop caring. And when an overly affectionate person like myself stops caring. Thats when you know you've lost me...

I'm done blabbing...

Trying to be better than I was yesterday...
D'Onna LeSean